love or hate ?

my status is taken. I've been in this relationship almost 2 years. I love him so much. i do. i did. he is the one that really understand me, know how to comfort me, support me and listen to me very well. but then I realise that what he can do and all he did just by words from his mouth. he's never act to what he said, he don't really show it like prove it or something, he didn't. I just closed my eyes for that, bcs of my love.

Till one day, he got a big problems. really big. and I helped him very hard without complaining or anything bcs of my love towards him. After we managed to handle this problem, he bcm someone that wanted me to just understand him and his problems, like I am a robot that don't have problems and feeling. He ignored me when I am depressed, need help and support from him. He give up easily when i need him. When I need him convince me about our relationship, he said "JUST LEAVE". HE JUST WANT ME TO UNDERSTAND HIM, ONLY ME. UNFAIR !

after what we've been through , how hard i helped him when he in trouble.. is this what i deserve ?

For almost 2 years , he never show,prove and act everything that he said. also, i don't feel/think he appreciates me even once.

I don't know either I love him or I hate him ...

I don't want to lose him srsly but sometimes even when I see his name i just feel hate.

sometimes I feel I love him so much but sometimes I feel " I'm done with him".

LOVE OR HATE ?

*sorry for my bad writing, sorry for my english :'(