Lonley holidays

Days like today, 4th of july or on my birthday i find myself alone and looking for a family to be with, i call different family members, my aunt god mother, mother, uncle to see if anyone is doing anything and wants to invite me to be with them and it hurts me deeply, i have a family we just arent close, we have gone thru alot and things just arent very lvoing or close.. all i ever wanted was to be loved, i have a beautiful daughter and when im with her im the happiest man alive but when im not with her like today i am a sad and dark person, i always hide my feelings and i know that isnt good, so this is why im writing this, no one will know who i am and i can still get it out of my system. I am sad and alone, i am dark and angry at the world and nothing will ever fix it. Thank you for reading this, happy independence day.