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Before I begin I just want to say there's a bit of backstory to this entire situation but between the facts that it's late, I can't really remember a lot of it, they're personal and not really important to this, and I just want to vent to a non biased party, I'm not getting into that.
So I am a rising junior in high school and I'm homeschooled. I have a bit of a strained relationship with my dad for various reasons. Like I said, past stuff that persona and unimportant. But basically I feel like my dad is oblivious and has serious anger issues. What he thinks of me I can't say. But as I said I am homeschooled (which I do through an online school), and I'm really good at math; something I get from my fathers side. Anyway my mom and I knew I was on track to finish math for high school my junior year, as I skipped pre algebra and went straight to algebra 1 in 8th grade, and took algebra 2 in 9th, and advanced math (geometry and trig) in 10th. For sophomore year I did the first half of the book(68 lessons that were NOT easy) as we had planned, and were expecting to go on my junior year to finish the second half and be done. We thought that in order to get a credit for advanced math I had to do the whole book, but long story short, I don't. In a nutshell, We had a misunderstanding with how many credits I got for the amount of math I did this year, and now I'm finished with math for high school as a sophomore. My mom and I were trying to figure out what to do with this and were questioning whether I should take two years off of math or what when my dad walked into the bedroom and we told him the news. His daughter accidentally finished math for high school as a sophomore.
This was his series of reactions:
1. Confusion as to what was actually going on. He thought the online school wasn't giving me the credits.
2. Non-chalantly saying "do what you want" after we asked what he thought I should do about math for the rest of high school.
3. When we said maybe just finsih the book anyway his only response was "I won't be herring any complaining about getting math done?" Very seriously/condescendingly. (Lets just say daydreaming is my best friend and school is not:D)
Not once did he congratulate me. He didn't say good job, he didn't say anything like that. Just got ready to attack my school because he thought they weren't giving me the credits, then he wasn't caring about what we did with the situation, then threw it back in my face that I take forever to get my school work done, something I am mortified and sensitive about.
I just finished a very difficult math class early, and my own father can't even throw in a pat on the back. Honestly the first person to say congratulations was my brother in law who we called for advice on what to do next.
But really, I'm even proud of myself. I mean I was scared of how much I had on my plate left to do and now knowing the world won't explode if I don't finish my math class and that I finished something that's above my grade level makes me proud of myself. It proves to myself that I can accomplish things and I'm not a complete idiot and failure, things I was suddenly self conscience of after something else my dad said to me. What started off with an argument with my mom in August about math I should have been done with much earlier became my dad literally screaming in my face about how much time I'd wasted. He ended it with sitting down and saying that he thought the only reason I got good grades (mostly As freshman year) was because I took so long on my school. This crushed me.
And now here I am, almost proving him wrong, and that's all he can say.
I mean there's nothing I can do about it but I honestly just need to hear something, anything. It feels like I just got engaged to the love of my life and everything's perfect and the only my dad has said is very seriously "don't have an expensive wedding because I don't want to pay for it."
I'm not crushed I just don't understand. If you leave a comment Scold him all you want but don't spew straight venom. This is terrible but please I just don't need that on my radar right now.
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