People hurt me often

This is my first time writing here. I don't know how this will turn out but here goes.

I have had this problem for most of my life now, and even that (only) therapist i once had wasn't taking it seriously.

I have the feeling I'm constantly being let down and not being taken seriously, by the better part of my environment.

The number of people in my life for example who don't reply to calls or messages any more, go into the dozens by now. And it's not because I'm a mean person, not by any means (no pun intended)! I am generally liked, some people call me sweet, some call me likeable, and, I'm afraid, most people probably describe me as nice (although I can't empirically prove that).

I don't know what I do wrong. Two nights ago was my 30th birthday. After the celebrations, my 'best friend' practically told me because he and his girlfriend had their sexy night he'd prefer it If I didn't sleep on his couch tonight, after agreeing to host me, resulting in my waiting until morning at the train station for the first train back out to my village. Same friend proudly told me about making out with a girl I fancied, without apparently even considering that I could fancy her. I open myself to people, they open themselves to me, and then they ghost me. I ask people for favours, they agree and then they never reply again.

Why do those things keep happening to me? I don't hear of anyone else among the people I know reporting this many letdowns.

My parents, at whose weekend house I live at the moment, humbly, embarrassedly, feeling like a burden, are late in picking me up from the train station, every, single, time. I ask my mother if we want to go have lunch at that place she always liked, and she replies asking if it isn't 'too low' for me. A friend who's on holiday said I could have her room for the week and texted me her flatmate's number, who I then texted, I'm planning on coming tomorrow, but she also doesn't respond. A friend who called me over for help and then realized her boyfriend would be jealous if he came home, and kicked me out just after ten minutes, after I had cycled 40 minutes to the other end of town. That same friend recently texted me that she sincerely wants to know how I am, and after my response never replied. My former flatmate hasn't answered my messages in the last six months. My other former flatmate and I had a close friendship, she had streaks of heavy depression and would cry and curl up and I was there for her, once day she said she wondered if I had ever seen her cry, and the next day cancelled a meeting we had, because just then she 'needed a friend'.

I don't get it. I have stopped wondering if it's the others or myself, because it clearly is myself. But as I said, I am not a bad person, in fact I am the most empathic person I know, and most people really seem to appreciate that - at first, anyway.

I don't know. I do have this vague feeling that whatever nice person I am, it's got something to do with my personality. I am rather introverted and humble, more a listener than a talker, more a doubter than a doer. I don't share my feelings and opinions in as a self-assured way as the next person, I don't like it when people talk loudly, I don't like it when people are in other people's faces with whatever they think is important. I guess I am just a delicate fragile piece of character.

I have that feeling that it has something to do with that, but I can't quite figure out exactly what it is about these traits that makes people be that insensitive towards me. Is it that I'm not present enough in other people's minds? Like, they don't see me because I rarely talk about myself, and thus act recklessly, because they just don't think about me because

But still, that doesn't make it fair for people to be those kinds of dicks, right?

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The (almost) daily routine of pain is now part of me, I live in constant fear of the next hurtful action and have tried building up a tougher skin, though without success. It feels like I'm cursed or something, it doesn't make any sense at all, and I can't talk about it with people because I know they wouldn't be able to take me seriously. (nothing new there, amiright fellas?)

If anyone shares these kinds of experiences, feedback is always appreciated.

In any case, thank you for reading, and to the people running this website, thank you for providing a service like this.