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So, the title says pretty much all of it. I don't really know. It hurts my feelings some that they actually sometimes question whether or not I'm a sociopath. The main reasons why they think that I am is because I know how to rip someone's ears off (self defense), how to butcher a deer, how to mummify someone, how shrunken heads are made, and how people stuff dead animals. To me, all of this is common knowledge, knowledge that everyone just sort of knows. I know how to butcher a deer because my father and my grandfather hunt and they asked for my help in butchering the deer. To me, it was interesting to skin it and cut it up. It was interesting to be able to see how the deer was built as a comparison to things I've dissected in biology class. I got to poke at it's organs and cut them out. I got to examine the muscle groupings. And I learned that you can cut a deer's leg right off without hitting any of the bone if you do it right which, to me, was fascinating. I even got to cut open it's head and look at it's brain. To me, it was a learning experience. And the rest of the information that I know, that is stuff that my father has told me about or stuff that I learned about when I was studying Ancient Egypt. I was watching Bates Motel and when Norman begins to stuff these animals to preserve them, I became interested in how that process went. So I asked my father and he told me the basics of the process and went on to explain that it is similar to what we do to people as we prepare their bodies for the funeral. I find it interesting that our society seems to be obsessed with preserving things. To keep them they way they always have been. And the main reason why I find it so interesting is because death and the soulless carcass that it leaves behind is the one thing that I would leave be. I would let it rot and let the animals and bugs eat it. Yet I try to preserve things that I do in my daily life. For example, if I don't do something the same way that I do it every day, I get anxious and nervous. I like having that pattern to rely on. I like sitting in the exact same spot every class period as I did the day before. It adds structure to my life. I know how to rip someone's ears off as a way to defend myself. It's also just interesting to know how fragile we really are. But I had an old abusive friend for nine years. And while that's in the past, it still haunts me and causes me to be paranoid and nervous all of the time. That is why eventually I want my own pocket knife. And why I learned how to defend myself. If even my best friend can hurt me to the point where she cracked some of my ribs, how can I trust anyone? Especially a stranger. But do I actually seem like a sociopath? Because I don't think that I am. I don't think that I'm crazy. But that's what my significant other is saying. They say that I'm a crazy sociopath.
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Don't think you can rip an ear off but OK
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