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This is going to be LONG! but if someone could please read it. THANK YOU!
please forgive the punctuation I'm more of a math person lol
Ive been dating this girl for 5months Before her i was in a 4 year relationship that i was more then hapoy to get out of So the girl im with now has trust issues thinking id go back to my ex no i would never but anyway thats not this problem Anyway quick backstory I grew up in Oregon and i had met a friend that im nicknaming Ghost for story purposes We were friends from 1st grade tell she moved in 4th then she moved back in 6th and we were friends again... Well we became super close and all our mutual friends said we should date 1st off it lasted 3hours because we were to young to realize what dating even was 2nd because we were to good friends holding hands and stuff was just weird for us.. She was like a sister So turns out a family memeber got sick and ghost moved away again My freshman year of highschool i finally got a facebook.. But i also moved to Tennessee to be closer to my mother's mother I got a friend request from ghost and we talked and caught up it was awsome But she told me a story.. She had just gotten out of a abusive relationship and it was so bad that she actually wanted get a sex change I tried talk her out of it but her mind was made up so i said okay and let her be her.. I wasnt ending the friendship.. We were to close for that Time went by and a year ago (i was 19 at this point) and i had been in the 4 year relationship.. But we had been on a break for 3 months Ghost and i were talking.. We talked about the past then.. Then we flirted alil and it was all jokes.. I wasnt sure she was still a girl and... I just dont like dudes im sorry just i dont..but we had always joked around like that we had no interest in eachother.. Well i had apologised for my attitude in middle school for the way i had broken it up Now 6 months ago Ghost messeged me a pic on snapchat of her face and new hair extinctions they looked like a weave.. I had made the joke "damn put some glasses on and id smash" I need you to understand it was all jokes I got together with the girl im now in love with im going nickname cutie.. Anyway Cutie and i got together 5 months ago.. I post photos of her everywere insta, snapchat, i talk about her everywere i go.. She has actually made me happier in 5 months then my past relationship did in 4years Well 2 weeks ago Ghost again hit me up on snapchat and sent me a photo of an ankle.. It was tore up and bleeding I asked you ok? She replied yes but i have call out of work i cant walk and my boss is pissed I said oh im sorry get better She said im trying I said.... Good girl :p That was the end the convosation 2 weeks ago Cutie was over and we were messing around watching youtube cuddling and we even played roblox on my xbox... Im now 20 and i realise i sound stupid.. But we could be kids together and still have fun it was amazing Well she got on my snapchat and was posting photos of herself and talking to a buddy of mine who i went to school with.. He was mad cuz i wasnt playing xbox with him "I was his first" again jokes about how woman still men from thier friends lol im not gay at all i promise that So she clicked on ghost on accident and read it.. I have explained everything above to her.. But not all the messages were saved She askes me 1 Q... Did i ever have feeling for her I said no... That wasnt a lie Cutie.... Wont belive me... I called ghost and asked if i could give her # to Cutie or her snapchat so cutie could get ghost to explain Cutie thinks i was calling to tell ghost we had stop cheating or something... Ive never been happier with anyone then i am with cutie... I love her and shes leaving me cuz she thinks im cheating and lying to her I need help.... Idc how or whst kind ..i just need to talk to someone..i have all snaps that are saved saved and will semd screenshots as proof im not lying
Now to go into another subject.. when I was in the relationship with the girl before cutie... the girl I was with for 4years. The last 2 years weren't the best.. I was tired of hearing I wasnt good enough I wasnt doing enough and I would spend all day with her and she would go up stairs to do her homework so I would get on my xbox one... to talk and play with friends... she would get mad everytime.
Cutie... knew me for the last year and half ish of this time... actually alil less then a year and half... but...anyway... before cutie and i ever thought of getting together she would call me a work alcoholic because anytime i would get in one of those stupid fights with 4year girl... i would go into work.. not even click in just go to work and work tell i cooled off... and as those fights got worse and worse.. i spent more and more time at work... finally cutie and i became really good friends.... and a friend and a girl he was with at this time... they both told me something.... they told me the 5mins they saw me talking to cutie one day they said they saw me happier in those 5mins then i was the whole weekend they had been hanging out at my place with 4year girl... and they told me that maybe it was time for me to move on... and.... as time went on.... i agreed... it was getting worse.... and... when 4year and i did break up.. i was hurt.. but... it was better....
Finally a couple months later...cutie and i... we decided to... date... and... she... she has made me happy beyond anything I've ever felt.. I've actually had a reason to wake up and feel good.... later in me and cuties relationship my ex 4year girl... she had posted something that I had actually cheated on her... with cutie.. and cutie and I hadn't even talked about dating anytime 4year and i were together! Cutie knew this and i wasnt upset that 4year was talking shit.. i was upset because...
1. She was talking shit about cutie in a way
2. She thought i would do that and.. I didn't want cutie to feel like I ever would...
Like i said cutie knew we were never together while I was with 4year girl.. but still it hurt a fuck ton..cuz it was wrong...
Then the story I have shared ahead of this happened.... and cutie didn't even think twice..and she thought I would do that to her
Cheat
I... I wouldnt... cutie... is a little goddess I have no clue how else to put it.
Cutie is the most beautiful person I've ever met.. she is so out of my reach it's not even funny.. I'm in little league and she is in pro ball... anyone who has ever seen her will always say.. how the fuck did she find ur ugly ass attractive..my answer... idk...
Okay so yes I've fallen in love with cutie.
5 months were... the best I've ever been. I wasnt always the best mood.. Bill's stress me out.. paychecks went always the best and..I'm an insomniac so I dont sleep much as it is...
But if I needed someone.... then cutie was there.. no matter what if I was upset.. she would tell me to smile... and no matter why or how upset I was... she would... make me smile...and I hate my laugh.. she...would pull out this crappy giggle... and she would always say... good man.. now keep it up... and no lie... I would stay happy because I would see her smile.
Now... I really do love her. I have never in my life met someone that just sitting down and ....playing something like ROBLOX.. I looked forward to those days... I looked forward to buying her flowers.. or stuffies.. or playing the crane game at walmart... we never won but... seeing her try was worth every dollar i threw into the machine....
Cutie... and anyone who else reads this... thank you.... I just want you to know..that...
I would never cheat on you... I deleted ghost... because... you are my world... and....
I would never cheat on you!...I swear to god.. I love you and.... I miss you... I miss everything we did... even roblox...
Now I had wrote all this down a month ago trying to cheer up. so the times are off we have been broke up for a month now and I cant just move on she means way to much to me
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