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Throughout my junior year of high school I began gaining weight. It wasn't a lot, but I've always been blessed with somehow staying thin despite not working out. The weight gain affected me and I became consciously aware of the numbers on the scale, constantly scared of the numbers rising. Time went by, and even though I was afraid of the numbers rising, I tried so hard not to change my lifestyle, because I knew it was all in my head. Yes, I had gained a bit of weight, but I was still average and it was all good. Halfway through senior year my anxiety reached its absolute high it has ever been and I got prescribed antidepressants. I was afraid that it was going to cause me to gain weight, but instead it caused me to have a loss of appetite. That loss of appetite caused weight loss. My body was okay with loosing weight, it was fine, but what scared me, what was it did to my mind. Seeing the numbers fall on the scale felt so amazing. It still feels so damn good. Though, I keep my BMI on the healthy side. I want to keep it that way and I actually feel okay about my weight right now. I just hate how my parents keep telling me to put on some weight. I'm not skinny. I'm still healthy and I am at a somewhat fine place. I don't want to put on weight, I am fine here. I've stayed at the same weight for months now. Why will it never be enough? You're never just fine. Either people comment on your weight gain or they comment on your weight loss. I've never been someone to comment on people's weight because I know how it can mess with their head. I totally lost track of what I was trying to write now, so I'm going to end it here. My head is a mess right now. My weight has been stable for months. Comments will only cause me to spiral. Thanks for coming to my TED talk.
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