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I'm a 14 year old girl, living with depression and anxiety after my father passed ayaw in March of 2017, now i'm starting to realize that I might have Excoriation Disorder (Skin Picking or Dermatillomania). I've been doing it since i was 9, I started noticing that I had eczema and acne forming on my skin, my eczema is on my upper arms, upper back, and all over my legs and it's been an ever growing problem since. It started with occasionally picking at one or two big pimples that would pop up on my face or arms and then leave it be, but now its grown to the point where i'll spend hours daily coming all over my body and picking at the most minor little bumps or spots. If I find a pimple forming on my face accidentally, i'll keep prodding at it until I can finally groom myself into a bloody, crater covered mess. It's almost therapeutic, being able to mutilate myself in such a way, to me i'm just removing all my hideous imperfections, but they just turn into scabs and scars that cover so much space and are so prevalent that i only wear long pants and shirts/jackets that cover my upper arms because i feel so disgusted by myself, i'll even spend up to an hour in the morning putting on makeup just to hide it. I don't consider it self harm, because its not. I've self harmed in the past because of my depression, but this isn't it. it's just a way to keep myself in order, not a way to punish myself or release stress via a blood letting. but, i'm not a professional. I don't know what else to do, I just needed somewhere to let that out into the world. Help if you can, Please.
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I suggest you treat this condition soon, before it gets out of hand, talk to your parents so that they can book an appointment with a dermatologist/psychologist. The only way things will get better is if you take the first steps to find help.
Maybe in order to not scratch, you could apply little plasters to the areas you are most prone to pick at.
I wish you well on your journey to recovery and remember you are not alone.
I am here if you need to talk.
Warm regards,
C
ReplyFind something to keep your hands busy. Its basically the same as nail bitting. If you keep your hands or mouth busy you cant pick it tricks your brain. Also pinterest has tricks for your skin problem. I hooe it gets better good luck.
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