One day

One day I'll just do it.

People who have been conspiring against me for 3 years will successful push me into commiting suicide.

I was already told indirectly by them to go and kill myself, there's so much more that was done towards me. They won't leave me alone and get the fuck out of my life. I cannot comprehend why these fucking strangers have been invading my privacy. It's ruining me and my life as it's causing me alot of distress. I have been living in total isolation because of these people and I don't feel comfortable where I live. I do not feel like I have anyone that I can trust and it has made me become paranoid. I don't feel safe in a place that I have lived for my entire life and never had an issue before, until 2016. I'm a woman in my late 20's and I'm stuck where I am in life because it's been a complete mess.

I haven't managed to recover from any of the trauma that I've experienced in my past. I'm unaccomplished and behind in my life compared to everyone else my age. I've been through alot and I have to put up with these fucking inconveniences everyday. There's always something whereever I go and it's making my life worst, adding to the problems that I already have in my life. I don't believe I can escape from it, barely have money and I can't get a job because before all of this, I was already an anxious person. This is just making me and the situations in my life alot worst, if not more paranoid and skeptical about my surroundings. I can't deal with the all of the horrible shit these people have put me through and have been doing behind my back.

This making me become sick and driving me crazy. It's starting to make me lash out and be enraged with the thought of people hiding behind this like cowards.

If nobody will or can help me then why don't I do it my way and I will use violence if I have to. I'm tired of letting people step all over me and get away with things that are sabotaging a life. It's not even justified with the amount of that's been to me on purpose. I was never a bad person, but this has tested my patience more than enough times and I'm not giving anymore chance.

I don't even know who I am anymore and what I have let myself become because of these people. They're fucking parasites eating away at me while I'm barely above the water.

I am not going to take shit from others who have no place in my life..

Done with them sabotaging my life to benefit their own lives and I'm sick of the sadistic,selfish, manipulative treatment too.

I'm tired of everything that they've been doing to me.

What else can I do?

Nobody wants to tell me the truth or tell me what the hell is going on.

I don't even understand why this is happening in the first place. Hate being made out as someone who's crazy and I just need to relax. I know exactly what these people intentions are and what they were trying to pull here were good at all.

There's fucking snakes are not who they seem to be at all and I want to know who's hiding. I would never use violence, but I have shot gun shells and all I'm missing is a shot gun.

What should I do? What is there left because my sanity is on the line and I really want whoever is messing with me to get a taste of their own medicine.