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4 months ago · · drugs, · Explicit
I have done a lot of things over my lifetime. im going to tell you the truth, im a junky. I was addicted to cocaine, but today im clean. I have been clean for 7 months, and I plan to remain clean. the thing is that im a college student im 21 years old. I study medicine and over the past time I was a 4.0 average student. now after a heart attack, im not kidding I almost died, im in a different city stating from scratch. I started at a new university, at first semester. I will start in 10 days, and honestly I am extremely scarred. I have to start again, to relearn the things I learned, to meet again students that are much younger that me. all because I made mistakes and fell into drug addiction. I returned to a city a swore that I would never return to, but today I have to do so because I f**k up so hard on my own. to star over again, knowing what I have done, the things I did because I was lost, for drugs or the f**k up mindset that being popular was the thing to do. for some time I lived my life according to the old words, sex drugs and rock and roll. I almost died, I have had sex with more people (I didn't care if they were men or women) that I can remember, and I partied hard. now I regret all. I had a hard life. I was raped, at a young age, abused by my stepfather who used to beat me, all because I wanted to protect my mother. I always thought that I wasn't born to be happy and drugs were the escape to that. I had to fight to survive, my family, my friends, all the people that I knew. all the people that I knew were dilers. the only thing we khew how to doy was to sell drugs, to party and sex, to forget our lives. most of my friends have died, all because we wanted to forget, the f**king live we had had. Im afraid.
pleas I don't want to use again or to fall.