A Monster Inside

Save yourself,

Katelyn.

The insolent little girl

Who wants you to binge?

She's not you

And she won't stop

Til you're dead

If you keep feeding her

You can life

Can help others live, too

Or you can feed her

She'll make you grow weaker

Until you die

All the most painful

And shameful

Deaths

It's not a metaphor

It's a choice

She wants you

Isolated

To feel alone

And unlovable

When Katelyn,

Letting yourself be loved

Is the beginning of healing.

She makes you think

Only life draining

Addictive substances

Will fill the hole

Within you

When truly

They create their own void.

Silence her,

Katelyn.

That girl is not you!

That girl does not love you!

She hates you!

You let her come inside

Let her in

A full decade ago

Too young

Too naïve

To realize

She'd move in,

And slowly work

To destroy you

So she wouldn't

Have to share

The space.

She's not you

And she hates you

Don't feed her

Or be patient

Don't love her

And DON'T tell her,

"Just this once."

She hates you,

And wants to destroy you.

Katelyn,

You are fighting

For your life

So fight!

Starve her!

Muzzle her!

Cage her,

If she must stay

In your home

Be dead

To her cries

But really,

You need to kill her

You need to murder

The demon

Who has taken

So much

Today

The day

That you see her exposed

And take

Your

Damn

Life

Back.