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I'm the eldest daughter. So I'm technically the third parent and my parent's emotional support. I'm the one every one leans on whenever they need anything: homework, sick, frustration, you name it i'm their way of letting it out. But no one's there for me.
I always, always worked hard to make my parents proud, it was for me too of course, but also, I wanted them to look at me and be happy and proud and stuff. It backfired right in my face. Now, I'm expected to always be perfect in everything and not mess up.
I'm supposed to help in the chores, get excellent grades ( If I get the usual A+ that's normal but a B- I must have been lazy huh ), be productive, babysit my siblings and be the best role model for them. If my siblings mess up, its okay, people make mistakes sometimes. But me, hoo boy you better prepare for a 3 hour lecture on how you are supposed to behave. Wanna know something else? sometimes when my siblings mess up, I get blamed " You were supposed to not let them do that" I won't even give a comment on this.
And after a long day, I can't even relax alone, I need to be with my family. And everything I do needs to have a purpose: reading? why do you always only read stories, read something on politics, history or science, that's much more useful, surfing the net? Watch some educational video instead. Why do you enjoy this and not that why do this and not that.
Everything I do is nitpicked and when I talk to them about it they tell that I am exaggerating and that my siblings are younger and I can't expect the same treatment and stuff, and maybe I am exaggerating, but that's just how it feels to me.
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You need to know that ultimately you are only responsible for yourself, regardless of what your parents or someone else' opinions.
And you need to know that others need to manage their own emotions. You can help but you are not responsible.
Whatever grade you get, it is YOUR grades.
Loving yourself unconditionally is always more important. And then you'll be able to do the rest appropriately.
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