My Unsent Letter

Hey. I don't really know how to feel, we haven't talked for awhile. I'm not even sure I know you very well now because I can't remember the last time I've talked to you. I think the last time we talked was when we had that random fight about not being able to trust each other. Things were really awkward after that. I would just like to say, I am so sorry that you ever felt that way.

I trusted you more than half the people in my life, why else do you think I talked to you so much? I felt like you were the only one that ever even cared enough to want to talk to me, and I trusted you with everything in me. Maybe you didn't trust me. But I promise every tiny thing I ever told you was the truth.

I never got to say the things I wanted to say to you before you basically blew me off. I was hurt, but I know more than anyone what it is to move on. People change and I learned to live with it. But my favorite quotes were always ''Seeing people change isn't what hurts, it's remembering who they used to be.'' and ''Sadly enough, the most painful goodbyes are the ones left unsaid and never explained.'' Because this is exactly how I feel.

In the end though, it is what it is. If you wanted to talk to me, you would. I tried to reach out to you, when I did, I got zero responses, or responses with

zero feeling and they didn't even sound like they were coming from the same person.

I used to be really shy, afraid to speak my mind and I lacked confidence. I'm a totally different person now, and I wasn't afraid anymore to speak up when you did something that would have made anyone angry or sad. Maybe this was the reason we started arguing more, maybe you liked the shy girl that you once knew. But that will never be me again, maybe you can find someone else like this. You changed even more than me, and I guess I felt a lot like you and liked the person I once knew as well. I feel like you went to a really dark place and decided to start not even caring about who you hurt, but only about your own feelings. That wasn't the person I knew.

I wish all the best to you. I hope you still love Christmas as much as you did, and you keep spreading the joy that you once did so much for me.

I will still send you a Christmas card and tell you Merry Christmas, not because you haven't changed, but because even though I gained some confidence, I never will. I will keep being kind and hope for the best.

I don't ask to be your friend again, but I hope in time we can talk to each other once again.

Peace out,

_Future