I'm wide awake.

Sometimes knowing too much haunts me.

And truth be told, reality is often dissapointing. Yet, hope arrives in such trivial ways. As if to reassure me, that everything that I knew of will eventually come to an end. Is that really inviting hope or is that just me wishing to end all suffering once and for all?

In fact, no matter what I do; adopt an optimistic growth mindset, try and help others, it will never be enough. It's trully difficult to be selfless, I admire all those peaceful souls who used themselves as sacrifical lambs for the better of mankind.

It is truly unfortunate how I rather focus on the dark parts of humanity. Maybe because everything becomes sugarcoated in our society. At least I am here, exposing the untold truth. The pretty lies. And it disturbs me greatly. How everyone bats a blind eye.

But at the end of the day, it isn't their fault. At all. Not everybody has to percieve things the same way as I do.

You are free. To think, believe and observe the world how you would like to. Just know, you should never be forced to do anything.