This sounds messed up. It is.

So you know how annoying it is when a friend says "I have a big secret" or something like that just to get you curious but then won't say it? Isn't it even more annoying when they add "If you know, you know" just to make you feel left out?

So for me, I've had a crush on that friend for a year now (we're both 13) and I have reasons to suspect that the secret is that she lost her virginity to her boyfriend last night (yes, we're 13.). It's like, when I think logically it sounds kind of insane, but I've had this theory from the start and what little clues I've gathered all vaguely point at it. I'd be really hurt if that's the truth but the uncertainty hurts me so much more, and also, it probably isn't. But I need to know so bad.

***, what is that big thing to do with your boyfriend that happened last night at 2AM?