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Guess who’s till not out of my head u guess I have a better attitude about it now but it’s still a serious pain. I wonder if you think about me Al the time to. I wonder if you were just as addicted as I was. Not talking to you is taking a huge toll on me. By huge I mean weirdly huge. I thought maybe I would be fine if I had to leave but I’m not fine. I think about you every second of the day and all night when I can’t sleep. It’s a bad habit I formed trying to wait up for you each night. I love you so much is unreasonable. I don’t fall in love. I don’t like people. In all honesty I was numb till I met you. I cried with you. I cried for you. I wanted to know everything about your life and I wanted you to know everything about mine. I’m not sure if not seeing your face kept me there or the challenge I felt trying to make you swoon over me. But the longer I stayed the more in love I fell with you. Only you. I love you to much. Way to much. I shake at the thought of your touch and I want to be one of those dumb ass pintrest couples. It’s stupid I know and knowing you you would hate me for it. Although when I was having that anxiety attack you offered to dance with me. You offered to show me off infront of everyone disregarding your own feelings about dancing and realationships because apparently you hated being asked about them. I never knew why but I didn’t care if we dated in secret or if the whole world knew because I love you. I still love you. This should be a goodbye letter. Saying goodbye to you is all I need right now. I need you done and off my mind but it’s so much harder than I thought it would be. I promised I would stay by your side until I was forced off and I still mean that. I wish you would hate me though, I wish you would for the rest of time. So maybe I could have a bit of closure. Maybe seeming you happy would make me feel better knowing your ok. Although in someone’s right now I really hope you r thinking of me. I hope the LEDS are on red and I hope “the world caves in” starts to play in your ear. I hope you imagine the cheerleading costume. I hope you play that dumb game you compared us to, and then have more love for the character that reminded you of me. I wrote these things in my notes because that’s how bad I miss you. I much I want you back with me. We didn’t have much deep talks but when we did I finally get free. I could laugh with you anytime. I hope you start back up life guarding because you seemed really passionate about it. I hope you get into boxing, I know your a skinny dude but I truly believe you can work your way up to the top. I wanna see you when I go to college in California. I promise I will look for you. Sure I won’t have a 16 year old Donte face to look for but I’m hoping maybe I’ll knock on every door and one of them will be yours. I knew it was never going to get anywhere but sometimes I wish you were from Ohio. Sometimes I wish I had you in my life just a little bit longer. For that I would give anything. I hope you know that truly. Kayla knows how many restless nights and tears I’ve cried for you, she thinks I should never talk to you again and just try and forget. But I don’t wanna. I want you. I want you to help me through anxiety attacks and my depression, I want to help you through your parents and your life as well. For the first time in forever I think u truly made me care. Somehow someway. I will really never know. It physically pains me each and everyday to think of you. It hurts my heart for than you will ever think of. I love you. I love you so much. Please know that and please think of me as much as I think of you.
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