The Devils sweet helper

The Devils sweet helper...

He throws arrows more accurately than Cupid. He's faster, smarter and a much better shot... His arrows penetrate deeper, stronger and more fierce, he knows he's the best.

They come daily or hourly even, each one carrying more hate than the one before... BITCH, SLUT, DUMB, UGLY, CUNT, ASSHOLE, STUPID, FOOL, ALONE... and then hugs,love and coffee.

DID I IMAGINE IT?

DID I REALLY SAY AND DO WHAT HE SAID I DID?

He was good, really good until I started to see through the arrows, now they fly pass me...

It's just his addiction they say, he's a good person, give him a chance or the 100th maybe, he will change but NOW I've changed.

I don't want to help, he has taken all the help I had to offer, I'm empty. I have nothing left for him, nothing good anyway.

I HATE HIM, he's not worth my time, I despise him, I see hell fire when I look at him, it's my own personal hell here on earth, there's a fierce anger in the depth of my soul just thinking about him and what he's done and said to me.

But, I know these feelings are far from who God made me, so I pray I am healed from all this hurt and go back to being who I was. I don't want to hate or be vengeful or angry so I pray for strength to forgive him and be peaceful again but I also pray God does not ever let me forget so I will never, never ever again fall prey to another one of the devils sweet helpers....

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