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I know what I am. Or at least, I know how society views me, particularly women. Men too, but I feel like women would judge me more harsh. I'm 23 years old, but for someone so young, I don't interact with anyone, like at all if I don't have to. I have a bit of a gut that I'm trying to get rid of, or at least I want to. The only thing I'm good at is playing video games, but I want to learn guitar and I am practicing, but I don't think I'll ever be on like, god-tier type level. By all accounts I would say that I'm ugly. No girl has ever even looked in my direction like, ever lol.
Oh yeah, and I have depression so there's that too.
Silver lining, I don't have to worry about impressing anyone because I know that no matter what I do, no one will ever be impressed. I'm just free to be me. Sometimes being reminded of all of these things kinda gets to me, but ultimately I just brush it off of my shoulder.
So, that's me. A fat ugly depressed bastard who's kinda just going through the motions, but I guess it isn't so bad.
I know what I am, and that's okay
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I don't even have a single friend. When I try to think of someone I might consider a friend, nobody comes up. I've been this way since 5th grade.
I think having a friend would be too exhausting anyway. Once a guy tried to get to know me. He's still trying to get to know me after-- what? 4 years? He's really so good-hearted, I don't even know why he still talks to me.
I'm also ugly. My face is so unproportionate; my eyes are too big, so is my nose, my skin is terrible, and my lips aren't as pink as I'd prefer. I could at least be butterfaced, or even white. But my body isn't nice either. Not even those men who are only after pussy go after my pussy because there's really nothing likeable about me, physically or internally. I know I'm just an object. I'm perfectly fine living this way. I don't someone to teach me how to be human.
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