An Only Child

I'll never forget the day I became an only child. And to think, this is all I wanted- to be alone; no sibling, just me. But now that I've gotten my wish, it hurts that my sibling isn't here anymore. My wish actually came true, I didn't want it like this though.

The house isn't as it's always been- the dynamic was gone, the colorful sound was gone. Silence filled every room and you could feel your mood waste away into sorrow and depresion.

With my sister being gone, she took my heart with her. Now there was a void- a big, empty, dark void that needed to be filled. Only she could refill that void in my soul, but I know perfectly well that she's gone. She's gone for good.

I moped down the hall, a plain expression on my face. I passed my room and kept walking down the hallway in the direction of another room- my sister's bedroom. I stepped through the doorway and got chills; she won't be here anymore. It hurt to see the room so empty and dull; it's not how it used to be.

The bed was neatly made with clean, soft, white sheets, but it was more gray from the darkened sky without lights on anywhere. I didn't bother turning on the lamp, I'd rather leave them off today.

I sat on the bed and stared at the bright red numbers displayed on the clock on her dresser. It was a quiet afternoon, there wasn't any background noise from the televisions or lively conversations in the other room. I only heard the light, hypnotic rhythm of the rain tapping against the window.

I used to find the rain peaceful, but it onlh made the scene more depressing. I pulled back the cirtains back and peeked through the blinds, wondering if she was looking down on me right now.

I audibly sighed and let go of the blinds. I walked away from the window and near the exit, I took one last glance at her room- the place we built memories and practically lived in. It was all gone, everything was gone at the hands of fate.

I closed the door with a click and left the hall into my room. I got my wish- I'm the only child, but it wasn't always this way. I wish I didn't even know her and the fact that I started out with a sibling and ended as an only child makes my heart aches.

I'll never forget the day, I became an only child.

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Sorry if this was depressing, but this happened 4 months ago on this day, so I thought I'd share.

If there are any typos or errors I apologize, thanks for your time and thanks for reading x