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i was just in the kitchen with my dad when he goes “*gf* and i are going to go to italy this october” and now im crying in the bathroom. i know it sounds so spoiled of me, but thats not it. i have ALWAYS dreamt of going to italy, ever since i was a little kid. me and my dad fantasized about what we would do in italy, where we would go, etc. it even inspired me to teach myself italian. its always been this thing for the two of us. my dad had an affair a few years ago and my parents split. it was really hard for me and our relationship has never been the same, but slowly I’ve adjusted and am amiable with his new family (his mistress and her daughters). im his only daughter, with two brothers. anyways, i made room for his new family, even though it did make me feel replaced and like i wasn’t enough. my relationship with him definitely took a hit and i think I’ll always slightly resent him. basically, him telling me he was going to italy, fulfilling OUR dream without me, i sort of broke. going to italy was the last thing we had together, our thing, and now he’s going to go with his other woman before he goes to me and bring me back a cheesy souvenir and send me pictures and then, in a year or so, he’ll bring me, my brothers, and her daughters to the exact same place as a big “family bonding trip” and italy will forever be tainted. ill never get to have an authentic first time seeing italy an itll be forever tainted by people i cant stand and its stupid but this is what happens EVERY. SINGLE. TIME. I genuinely don’t want to go with him and his girlfriend and her kids even if that means i wont get to see the place ive dreamed of going for another decade. i refuse them take this experience away from me. he’ll hate me forever but thats okay because vice verse, y’know? anyways this whole thing is stupid but its not just about italy, its the principle. they’ve taken every special thing between me and my dad and turned it into a family thing, even though we’re not family and we’ll never be family and I’ll never see them as anything more than my replacements.
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I'm sorry if you feel like that. Having a dream and your dad knowing you want to go there is not you being spoiled or overreacting. I'm sorry but I don't know what it's like to have a step family but I can just imagine it being overwhelming at time but I hope you can work it out and find a middle ground or even going to Italy with your dad!
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