DREAM MEANING!!! ASAP!!

I had a dream a couple nights ago and it has my mind all over the place and I really want you guys to help me please. Alright, so long story short, (maybe not short but its not long I promise) one of my closest best friends dated this guy who is the definition of TOXIC, on and off for a year maybe almost a 1yr ½ maybe Idk. Later, He got her pregnant. But unfortunately some bad news broke out and he had to leave town with his brother. Looking back at the things he did to her while they were dating before and after her pregnancy and and while he is away (No violence or abuse), it makes my blood boil and it disgusts me how a guy could be like this to girls, especially to your best friend it aggravates me to my nerves and whenever I think about his face...God tells me to learn to love all people regardless but he makes it difficult for me. The rest is history I don't want to talk about it and it's none of my biz to talk about someone's biz but I wanted to say enough to make this dream meaning more sense. So now to the dream. So you know Girl Code, don't date your best friend's ex or crush, well I am a person that wants to keep my besties for life I will NEVER do this to them! But....this happened in my dream. I dreamed with my best friend's baby daddy! Like, it shocks me, disgusts me, just everything all over the place!! In the dream, the guy was starting to have interest in me but I didn't because, you know. But shortly after I was attracted to him and got carried away and we starting kissing and right there looked like a blur. Then, we started sneaking out on a snowy night to hang and started kissing and hugging and then one part where I was laying down and he was on top of me and I was watching him kissing my hand idk or my chest I think but I wanted him to kiss my neck and then he did and I tilted my head back with my eyes rolling and let a small moan....oof😶. Then, at this moment, it just felt like he never dated her and one part we got out of the house from a family party or thanksgiving and my mom was like, "where you going with (his name)?" and i was like pointing outside holding his hand doing a 😏 face and my mom was like what?? and I closed the door and I was hugging him like I wanted a guy to hug me in real life if I were dating one and I was smiling at him. THE END!! The weirdest part about this dream is that IT FELT REAL!! THE KISSES, THE HUGS, THE WARMTH OF HIS BODY, EVERYTHING! IT FELT LIKE IT ACTUALLY HAPPPENED. BUT WHY??!!!! OUT OF ALL OF THE GUYS WHO COULD HAVE BEEN IN THIS DREAM WITH ME, IT HAD TO BE THIS GUY!!!! The guy's face looked very different than real life tho thank god. As much as I hate to admit this, the guy not not ugly, well in real life, not on the dream tho. It's just so bizzare to me because I actually despise the guy sooooo much but this is something I also hate to admit: To be honest, I have been single for year so this made me feel very good that I had a "bf" but too bad it was in my dream but I rather have it like this than in real life, thats another story. And also, I can't get those neck kisses out of my mind dude, those felt good man. I hate myself. But back to reality, does this mean I need a boyfriend, do I need to accept the people I hate more?? Make sense of this nonsense people. Have a nice day people I appreciate it if u wanted to help. God Bless ya'll and remember, Boy and Girl Code!!!!