MY GOAL IS TO MAKE MY LIFE BETTER

Its been a long time since I wrote. And as the year 2022 is about to end, here are the things I learned about myself. I WANT TO MAKE MY LIFE BETTER, and I understand that along with making my life better, there will be a lot of difficulties, unmatched stress, anxiety, breakdowns, a LOT OF BREAKDOWNS but all of that is a part and will be my backbone in making myself better to be able to provide a better life for me.

This year, I enrolled as a MEDTECH student, didn't like my performance during midterms and I was still adjusting myself to a new environment, learning also at the same time how will I be able to manage and cope up with stress and anxiety and a lot of overthinking about my future too. But most of the times, when I could feel like the emotions are piling up again and trying to break my focus, I stop and breathe. I re-programmed myself and saying things like " IT'S GONNA BE FINE AND THINGS WILL BE BETTER, LET THINGS BE AND FOCUS ON THE PRESENT" I think how blessed I am and how God is great that despite of everything, I am still here fighting for my future.

It's not easy but holding on to the promise I made to myself what makes me move forward. Like one time, I saw this post on social media and it says that " I WANNA SEE MYSELF IN THE FUTURE WHAT IT'S LIKE WHEN I DON'T GIVE UP" and I put that in mind and it just motivated me.

I also started to have a social media detox. I tried doing it last time but it was only for a short time and I didn't took it seriously, but right now, I wanna have a social media detox and be gone from my social media friends eyesight. I wanna be better without being distracted. I have goals and I have a timeline that I want to achieve without delay anymore. This time, I will be more focused. I will only think of what will benefit great to my mental health, emotional and social health. I will focus on my studies, to finish my degree, have a career, have money, businesses in the future.

I will not let my mistake doomed me again. But instead, I will continue to grow and grow, learn and learn. And with that, I WILL BE ABLE TO MAKE MY LIFE BETTER. <3