Will I be okay?

Do you ever feel like you're drowning and you try to swim to the surface but there's an anchor attached to your ankle keeping you down? I'm exhausted from trying to gasp for air every minute of every day. I'm trying so hard to be okay but honestly I don't know how to be okay anymore.. What did I ever do to deserve this much pain? I try my hardest to make everyone smile and to make sure they are okay but I just keep getting used over and over. Especially him... He hurt me the most.. 3 years of working there and thinking I was actually good enough and they actually liked me.. but when my brother told them that the male manager was using me and other females there not realizing that it included him screwing another manager as well, the male manager Fired me. The other managers tried saying they couldn't fire him because they " didn't have someone to replace him" but really they just didn't care about me or what happened to me. After that I'm scared to work with another male manager. I feel worthless, broken, stupid, and ashamed.. Will I be okay? Will I survive? Till next time....