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i get so angry sometimes that i think abt what it would be like if i wasnt here. if i wasn't anyones problem. i think abt how sometimes i do have hope. that some day in the future, i wont feel the way i do now. i wont be the way i am now. but that thought comes and goes. never stays.
i think abt the few ways i can end it.
and i think and think and continue to think abt it.
but i get scared.
it would be easier if the stronger feelings were always present, but they come in waves that are sometimes massive. so massive that it feels like im drowning. so massive that id rather drown instead of continue to fight. and when those massive waves subside, the seas are calmer, the water only ripples and thats when it feels like maybe things will let up. but the sky is still overcast and the clouds are heavy and its not long before a storm starts brewing. bc even when it seems okay, its never rly. never rly enough.
and i hear voices that whisper the why nots. its hard to push back in the moment. maybe bc i wanna believe them, the voices. or maybe bc ik that no matter what i say, ill keep hearing the same old thing.
bc maybe its not abt what they didnt say. or abt what i want them to say. maybe hearing the right thing wont change anything. maybe the right thing isnt even the right thing if it wont change anything. but i do want there to be a right thing. i just dont rly feel like there is a right thing.
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