Here again

Hi hi

Its been around a month since I last wrote here. I sadly still feel like Im drowning in my own feelings. I can't shake of this feeling that Im sinking. Im trying to swim up and enjoy what college life has been like but I cant. I can't forget the horrible feeling of leaving her. That she was the one and just let it die. Even if it was because of my family. Even if I knew she wasn't the best or the healthiest, she was the one for me. I let that go. Now I don't know if Ill ever find someone like her again. I just can't with this hole in my heart. I dont know what to do about it. I just hope that it goes a way soon by itself. Ill keep trying my hardest though cause I know I can make a difference. Even if right now it feels like Im a waste or can't do anything, I know I'll get past this. I hope it isn't too late by then. Thank you to anyone who does read this and sorry if this is a mess.I hope that you may have a good day or night where ever you may be. God bless.