Dysphoria hits different.

Finally. A place I can vent.

Ok, so I'm Female-to-Male or FTM for short. And can I just say, Dysphoria hits different. I've been trying to drop subtle hints about my gender identity, but for some reason, my family thinks I'm lesbian, and even if I was, they still wouldn't be supportive. Besides that topic a little bit, I have a story about my day. Me and my family own a catering company, and we accidentally got this order a little bit wrong. I don't know how, but it was somehow put on me. My boss (AKA, Dad) said out loud, to all the rest of my coworkers (Immediate family) that I was on my cycle (which I don't like to say. I call it a 'Leaky Manhole').

I kid you not. That single thing absolutely ruined my day.

Back on topic.

Being trans is really hard.

It's been getting so bad recently, that I cant even look in the mirror anymore, I can't socialize like I used to, hell, a few days ago, I was doing a catering gig, and I needed help lifting up a heavy food container, so, this guy came out to help me, and I said in a low voice (I have been giving myself weeks of voice training) "Hey, man. Can you help me lift this real quick?" and he replied "Ok :)" after him helping me, I said "Thank you, sir" and he said back to me "Yes, ma'am ". I know he was trying his best, but It single handedly made me feel like I wanted to hide from the world.

Well, I got just a quarter of things off my chest, and that's just for today. Thanks for reading