Conceptualizing

I just heard a song called Let It Out, and it made me think on the concept of letting it all out. What does it mean to let it all out? Does it mean you considered every possible thing on existence? So, to some point, you are going to go back around to your starting point, unless things are truly infinite. Infinity is truly a concept, and whether or not it's real is another matter. When I started listening to the song, I said, "I should not even try to let it all out, because I already did", and when the song ended, I felt like I was about to explode and my composure was going to get blown out. I'm that self serious, if a song says to let it out, I'm going to let it out, because I know songs have a shallow meaning on the surface, but in reality they are more deep than they appear. If words are not making the cut on explaining things, then you just need to realize that what you are currently seeing in reality is every little thing that could be. Not a thing gets left out of existence, it all counts. So unless you wanna give a name to each individual thing composing the universe and everything, you are gonna conceptualize at some point in your life and wonder about everything, and then you create a scenario in your head where everything goes together and it's like a big orb containing all matter, which you know in your head it's going to create conflicts within the own idea of it existing at all, like it would not make sense to you even if you tried to, because that's a fool's errand. And so when I was listening to this song, I found myself in a weird pattern of behavior, saying, "you wanna play that game of letting it all out, girl?", and then I said, "fine, let's play", and I realized that it was kinda fun that a song was suggesting me to let it all out because honestly, being thoughtful of everything makes my blood ignite. I know this sounds strange, dear whoever is reading this, but we are survival machines, and to not be thoughtful about your surroundings is a failure to understand your place in the universe. I just didn't feel the need to let it all out while listening to the song, because I felt like at some point you are going to come back to the same place, and I feel like I already let it all out, so therefore all I had to do was continuing to be part of the symphony. Just reminding you that this is a place to be respectful, so please restrain from saying any negative or harmful things towards me. Out of all the concepts humans made, I'm the most fascinated by existence itself, and we asking ourselves the admittedly silly question of where did things come from; to me this question could be asked to any scenario in life, and you'd be surprised for the answer, like for example: "What was before the glass was filled with water?" But I have a concern, and it's that while I was listening to this song (LET IT OUT by Miho Fukuhara) I was asking to her "Why do you want me to let it out more than I already did?" and it brings me this question: "Did I actually let it all out if I'm handicapping myself like that?" If things ought to be truly infinite, then to begin with, that would be an insanely mind blowing concept, but an endless one; so in a way, while listening to the song I should have endlessly blown my mind out instead of claiming that I already did let it all out... but if once is enough, then why would I continue trying? This is a rather existential dread. And I don't know if it deserves a post, but I felt like making it because it's more meaningful than what it seems. Hey, you wouldn't judge me, right? I know there's people who just make you feel bad out of the blue because they have weirdness sensors, and I know what I say is weird, and it's definitely long too, but I feel like I'm saying something important... it's about letting it all out. And buckle up, because I have more apologetic things to say, since I'm one of the most apologetic people on the earth; I wrote all this, and I felt like saying something today, and again, I am weird, but please be respectful. I could have said many different things, but I often say the first thing that I'm currently facing, and I usually like to find an excuse to say meaningful things, but I know I'm not the only person who does that.