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Honestly, it didnt bother me THAT much, but like the fact that its sticking with me, hurts. I don't know what went thru my ex-bsf's head when she decided to pick a girl, that we BOTH hated, over me, who was by her side ALL. THE. TIME. I just hate the fact I went over to her house after a WHILE of not being there (that home is so nostalgic bc I practically grew up in it, we were THAT close) and like i saw ex-bsf's younger brothers and omgg they've grown up SOO MUCHH. It just hurts, because they used to always want me and talk to me, but now her brothers aren't close with me anymore 💔. That doesn't compare to the pain I feel against ex-bsf. I can still remember so clearly of me always hiding in their home after school just so I could stay over and we could see eachother more. I remember when we both dressed up as characters that were sisters on world book day, because we thought of eachother as sisters. I ADORE that photo. And how we told eachother our silly future plans, and what we'd do once we got our drivers licence. Oh and when we grew a little older and wanted to go out together, just the 2 of us, but our mothers didn't allow us so we snuck out and got chased by someone 😂😠(its a whole other story, we weren't in danger LMAO)
Anyway, it just hurts HELLA BAD. Like maybe now I won't cry over it, but when I go thru our baby pics I'm bawling my eyes out because I don't see what I ever did wrong. Like if younger me knew that her bsf would later become a stranger in her life, I would've parted ways earlier so it'd be less painful for me. UGHH JS WHY COULDN'T SHE STAY AS MY BSF?? WHY DO PEOPLE HAVE TO CHANGE FOR THE WORSE?? She's still apart of my life, and it actually feels like I'm being dragged into hell. Wish I actually had a decent friend now, I haven't had a good lasting friendship since she left me. Omgg, I remember one night i was over for a bit longer than usual, and we just looked out her window at the sky and we told eachother what we would do at each age. Like she'd be like, "when I'm 18, ill take you for a drive, okay?!" And id be like "when I'm 20, you better live in the same house as me!! Or maybe we could get homes next to eachother!" Ugh, such cute memories that r just a wound to my heart now.
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Losing your best friend is the worst, worst feeling. I've gone through the same thing, right here with you!
ReplyUghh literally, hope your doing well though! You got this girl <3
ReplyThank you!
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